| "Well, some people just need to die"... |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|08:06 pm] |
well, Heather's gone so there's no real form of communication at the shack (home) right now. To reach me, come find me and if you don't know where it's at then drop a message and I'll tell you once I can return it (I'm not broadcasting that to the whole world.
You know, I never thought that one person could be absolutely filled with so much spite and hatred till I went through this and watched Heather's actions unfold. Having held my tougue for so long due to the different political variables but also not wanting to throw too much negativity in to the air the following statement is all that I'll say at this time: Of all the food that was gone (much of which wasn't hers) and all the supplies that are gone (much of which wasn't hers) and all the other things that are gone (much of which wasn't hers) one of them was her, and that makes all the difference.
so find me.... hopefully you woln't have to for long |
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| GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKERS, MY SHIT'S BEEN JACKED!!!!! |
[Mar. 14th, 2006|10:16 pm] |
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| |  Pissed the FUCK off | ] |
I usually don't write or repost too many bulletins but this is important. My Yahoo account (ronin_9) has been hacked. I'm locked out and rather pissed off as in PISSED OFF TO THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF PISSEDTIVITY!!!! I need everyone to send me their yahoo info so I can start rebuilding my list. Even if you wern't on my list before you're more than welcome to join. Right now, however, I've got a thirsty blade with nothing to drink.... |
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| I'm Leaving |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|10:38 pm] |
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that's right, I'm leaving...I'm leaving the whole world alone. I'll be around to fufill my obligations but after that I'll proably be gone and I may not ever be back. many of you may never understand my reasons or they may be already transparent. I may change my mind if some other things change first but for now I'll be on my way... leave a message if you wish to say goodbye... |
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| I'm proably NEVER CELEBRATING SHIT AGAIN!!!!! |
[Jan. 15th, 2006|06:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Dead to Most | ] |
ok...so my birthday was lukewarm to say the least...actually it was quite cold...DEAD cold. Maybe I'm just pissed of at how it went overall. There were about four people that were absolutely great, you know who you are, and I love you for that. However, in my eyes, there was alot of shit that thole people didn't contribute to or could control. So many people can be easily found, or some that know they're important but arent so easy to find, to be cheerful and say they're gonna do some thing when it's convienent but when it just happens to be important to me they dissapear or there are a billion other things that are SO important that I don't even get a simple phone call or an acknowledgement of what day it is that I've been talking about for months now. People that I had to seek out on the day that I just wanted to thought about, not alone, and maybe be close to someone. FUCK, even the woman that squeezed me out conviently "lost" my fucking number. Overall when the dust cleared I felt VERY much alone, ignored, and insignifigant....AND I FEEL LIKE THAT SHIT REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED!!!! People that know me how that I don't like asking for shit and I usually don't but GOD DAMNIT IT'S MY MOTHER FUCKING BIRTHDAY!!!! After all of the bullshit that you know has happened and is happening with and around me AND Christmas AND New Years, hell, the WHOLE FUCKING HOLIDAY SEASON ALONE a simple "Happy Birthday and I love you" was TOO FUCKING MUCH!?!? The people that really need to hear this will proably never read this but I'm MOTHER FUCKING PISSED!!!
You know, the reason that I dont' post worth shit even though I'm online almost every god damn day is that I get tired of talking about the kind of bullshit that my life is so I don't say shit in writing. I figure that it's visable enough for everyone to see even though I keep marching on any mother fucking way. This happening just makes things feel that much worse and everything ends up tasting like shit fried in puke and draped in toxic waste. Changing my focus now is nearly impossible because the pain has engulphed me.
These are the times that the battle rages and i feel I'm going to lose between good and evil, light side and dark, life and death, humanity and demons, contimuing to care and just not giving a FUCK
...So thank you. Thank you for all of your actions, your efforts...They've proven QUITE effective.... |
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| I thought I would |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|10:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Remember The Name"- Fort Minor | ] |
So...
since I don't really don't update all of the time like *ahem* some people even though In don't think that that many people actually read them (since I posted 10 times on myspace with 33 reads and 1 comment either the same 3 people are actually reading or it's the same people reading all of the time but it's a bit better on LJ). I guess I'll start from the begining:
Well, I'm not that much closer to finding my father than I was before but I havn't been trying that hard either. I've been trying to figure out some things first and I've actually gotten answers from my mother which is a step in the right direction for sure. That and she pointed me to a job Patent Sitting so hopefully they'll call me back. I also have a interview for a lesser job that was gonna be rescheduled for next monday but I got pushed ahead to tomorrow :-D and I think I'm golden for that one (it's a second interview).
My Birthday is Saturday but I have to say that, with the way things have been, I'm not too confident that it, moreso the party at the Love Shack (if you don't know ask me for directions), will go the way that I would totally like it to but I still want to try. Gifts of cash would be appreciated :-D but not required as the best gift is your companionship. I just really want to have a good birthday.
I think, I hope, that things are starting to look up for me on 2006. It helps that it's gonna be the Year of the Dog. Well, ya'll better at least stop through on my Birthday....Damnit :-D |
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| *!!!!!!PLEASE READ!!!!!!* Willie Lynch: The Making of a Slave *!!!!!!PLEASE READ!!!!!!* |
[Jan. 3rd, 2006|08:42 am] |
This was origionally posted by "*~ The TOKEN "BLACK" guy...~*" (www.myspace.com/tonetone609) and besides being near and dear to my heart it gives insight into the types of horrible things that people will do to each other for personal gain. In addition to the understanding that I gained about myself, my enviroment, and many of my personal struggles I hope everyone takes with them the fact that if we do not learn from history we are CERTAINLY doomed to repeat it. Thank you
( Please read on... ) |
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| How Far Will you travel |
[Nov. 10th, 2005|05:10 am] |
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I'm in the process of setting up a series of filters in levels 1 through 3 or 5. These are ranked in order of depth from basically public to the Outer Regions of my insanity and it's acts both joy and pain. Everyone respond with the highest level that you'd like to see. |
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| Now this is gonna be scary |
[Nov. 8th, 2005|06:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Thriller"- Micheal Jackson | ] |
I stole this from Jenny's LJ who stole this from Nicole's LJ
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a spatula, either way.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. |
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| Before I drop off the face of the planet. |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|06:06 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Mouth"- Bush | ] |
Just a quick update that I'll define later. My situation's about the same but I'm praying for another job soon. I'm trying to get healthy again and dramatically uping my water intake while cutting out alot of sugar has helped (not all though, I'm still an addict, lol). At least it doesn't feel like my heart's gonna explode when I get worried or try to go to sleep so I guess the anxiety's getting better. Still not able to sleep but that's more about my enviroment than my body even though I had a wierd incident I'll elaborate on later. I've also had some things on my mind but that's later. LUAVM >:D |
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